What's in a name?

You've probably heard of the Fortune Cookie game – add 'in bed' to the end of any fortune from a cookie to make it more exciting. Well, I'm hoping that my love of books and beautiful writing will help me cope with chronic migraines.
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts

Thursday, 21 August 2014

'You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it.' – Margaret Thatcher

I'm always surprised when an anxiety attack hits. I'll be doing something mundane, then there it is. It comes out of nowhere, feeding on nothing logical and lasts for no pre-determined time. It's been months since my last bout of panic, since that gripping, heart-pounding doomsday feeling took over.

Today while I was editing and preparing a story for a competition entry, anxiety attacked. I felt overwhelmed and out of control despite the conditions of my reality being calm and autonomous. I put aside my rising panic long enough to submit the story, ignoring the voice in my head screaming that it wasn't ready. Then, when that didn't stop the attack, I went outside to weed the garden. In a surprisingly short time the act of having a definite, productive task with a measurable outcome calmed my mind. I think the physical exertion also helped. Now I just need to remember that and gain access to a garden wherever my next attack strikes.

What else do people do to combat an anxiety (or migraine) attack?

Monday, 14 July 2014

'Fear, anxiety and neurosis: that's just in the suitcase when you're an actor.' – Laura Linney

Often when I'm on holiday I try to force myself to relax. I know that sounds silly, but I'm so determined to go home rested that I get anxious about whether we're doing too much; am I being present the whole time so that I'm experiencing it all; am I getting the most recuperation value out of this time off? (This is more proof that I'm neurotic and think too much. Maybe I should become an actor.)

I don't know what's changed, but on this holiday, so far, I've been able to do what I feel like doing, when I feel like doing it: lie on the beach reading or watching the wildlife, swim, nap in the hotel room, have a drink before dinner. Only once have the anxious thoughts tried to invade. Am I taking everything in? Look how wonderful it all is! I turned these fretful mind-ninjas back early in their advance by taking a deep breath and gently reminding myself that I'm present so it's all good.